i realize that empty words are not enough.
current mood: tired as fuck
current song: "are we really happy with who we are right now?" by moneen
okay, so it's kaci.
i can't lie to tara's friends list.
seeing as i have jury duty in six hours, i don't really get to say goodbye to tara, per se.
i figured this was cooler & a little more permanent.
thirty reasons i'm going to miss/already love tara...
1. now no one will let me play beauty school on them.
2. because murdah is never as much fun without seventeen.
3. tara doesn't scream like a girl when i tell dead baby jokes.
4. because no one else finds it as amusing to yell "FINAL DESTINATION!" while boarding an airplane.
5. i can't brag about how i get drunken hugs from her when she's gone.
6. now i'll have to buy my own digital camera.
7. i'm going to have to learn to make myself clothes.
8. my grandma will finally go back to loving me most.
9. friday's/denny's/del taco will be quieter.
10. i won't get to drive the mustang anymore.
11. the color purple will be less prominent.
12. i can't be patriotic without her.
13. i'll have to find someone new to roll their eyes when i start to talk about war/literature/film/other boring non-tara subjects.
14. i'll have to start translating other languages besides hers.
15. being drunk will be significantly less amusing.
16. because i like coming home to twenty-three new text messages.
17. because we both giggled like schoolgirls after the broken nose/severed spine accident.
18. it'll be harder to show tara hot guys when she's eight hours away.
19. i'll have to find a new friend to drop out of c.o.d with.
20. la's going to suck now too, because that's such a kaci/tara thing.
21. the ex-boyfriend comedy will stop.
22. my life will no longer be littered with slackers quotes.
23. enrico, the lovedoll, will never be as funny as it was with her.
25. when she leaves, all of my friends will know how to clap in rythymn. meh.
26. pink lemonade won't taste as good. ahahaha.
27. without her, adam lazzara won't think i'm as good lookin'.
28. it means i have to drive to shows now. eff.
29. i won't have anyone to observe groping sassy rockstars at shows. (AHEM, EVERYONE.)
30. because she is my sister, and the truth is, i am completely codependent & pretty much helpless without her. she is truly one of the only people i can think of that i love unconditionally, and i know she is going to have an amazing time. she's going to gain so much from this experience and become so much more of a well rounded and insightful person. i fucking love her and hope all of the best for her. because she deserves it. forever-and-ever.