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i realize that empty words are not enough.

July 30th, 2003 (12:38 am)
current mood: tired as fuck
current song: "are we really happy with who we are right now?" by moneen

okay, so it's kaci.
i can't lie to tara's friends list.

seeing as i have jury duty in six hours, i don't really get to say goodbye to tara, per se.
i figured this was cooler & a little more permanent.


thirty reasons i'm going to miss/already love tara...


1. now no one will let me play beauty school on them.
2. because murdah is never as much fun without seventeen.
3. tara doesn't scream like a girl when i tell dead baby jokes.
4. because no one else finds it as amusing to yell "FINAL DESTINATION!" while boarding an airplane.
5. i can't brag about how i get drunken hugs from her when she's gone.
6. now i'll have to buy my own digital camera.
7. i'm going to have to learn to make myself clothes.
8. my grandma will finally go back to loving me most.
9. friday's/denny's/del taco will be quieter.
10. i won't get to drive the mustang anymore.
11. the color purple will be less prominent.
12. i can't be patriotic without her.
13. i'll have to find someone new to roll their eyes when i start to talk about war/literature/film/other boring non-tara subjects.
14. i'll have to start translating other languages besides hers.
15. being drunk will be significantly less amusing.
16. because i like coming home to twenty-three new text messages.
17. because we both giggled like schoolgirls after the broken nose/severed spine accident.
18. it'll be harder to show tara hot guys when she's eight hours away.
19. i'll have to find a new friend to drop out of c.o.d with.
20. la's going to suck now too, because that's such a kaci/tara thing.
21. the ex-boyfriend comedy will stop.
22. my life will no longer be littered with slackers quotes.
23. enrico, the lovedoll, will never be as funny as it was with her.
24. y&gcore.
25. when she leaves, all of my friends will know how to clap in rythymn. meh.
26. pink lemonade won't taste as good. ahahaha.
27. without her, adam lazzara won't think i'm as good lookin'.
28. it means i have to drive to shows now. eff.
29. i won't have anyone to observe groping sassy rockstars at shows. (AHEM, EVERYONE.)
30. because she is my sister, and the truth is, i am completely codependent & pretty much helpless without her. she is truly one of the only people i can think of that i love unconditionally, and i know she is going to have an amazing time. she's going to gain so much from this experience and become so much more of a well rounded and insightful person. i fucking love her and hope all of the best for her. because she deserves it. forever-and-ever.
<3<3<3

Comments

Posted by: Let's Try This Again... (iheartkittens)
Posted at: July 30th, 2003 11:48 pm (UTC)
No subject needed...

I fucking LOVE YOU Kaci...

Posted by: Memories fill our lungs, drowning us (taraj)
Posted at: August 1st, 2003 04:07 pm (UTC)

I haven't even come close to crying while experincing this whole " moving" thing until now.....
kaci theres a 3x3 room to share with 2 other girls waiting for you... & this is where you need to be.
i love you & thank you for dealing with the TARA for this long<3<3<3<3<3

Posted by: green eyes (anisun16)
Posted at: August 4th, 2003 05:17 pm (UTC)

i saw your icon picture, through a friend of a friend.. and i have to say....

i love your hair.

Posted by: Memories fill our lungs, drowning us (taraj)
Posted at: August 4th, 2003 07:15 pm (UTC)

awww thank you much <3
Tara J

Posted by: The Sad Part is.. he loved her (romancecrushed)
Posted at: August 9th, 2003 11:13 pm (UTC)

You look so familier. Ever been to Palm Springs?

Posted by: Memories fill our lungs, drowning us (taraj)
Posted at: August 10th, 2003 10:06 am (UTC)

yah i use to live there....
why why???
i just moved to San Francisco two weeks ago
<3
Tara J

Posted by: The Sad Part is.. he loved her (romancecrushed)
Posted at: August 10th, 2003 10:35 am (UTC)

ngkjdnh now i remember haha. You worked at Rock Star Unlimited!!!!!....thats where i remember you from.

Posted by: Should'veneverstartedis'ntthatthewayitalwaysends (_hopekillsme_)
Posted at: August 10th, 2003 11:22 am (UTC)

yah thats where i worked... would i know you?
or do i?
im lost.
ahahhaa
this is my new lj name by the way...
<3 Tara

Posted by: The Sad Part is.. he loved her (romancecrushed)
Posted at: August 10th, 2003 11:25 am (UTC)

I use to go in there all the time and i've seen you there before.

Posted by: Should'veneverstartedis'ntthatthewayitalwaysends (_hopekillsme_)
Posted at: August 10th, 2003 11:36 am (UTC)

oh cool cool.
next time you go in tell everyone hello for me, ya??
:)
<3 Tara J

Posted by: The Sad Part is.. he loved her (romancecrushed)
Posted at: August 10th, 2003 11:39 am (UTC)

Haha ok!

Posted by: Should'veneverstartedis'ntthatthewayitalwaysends (_hopekillsme_)
Posted at: August 10th, 2003 11:40 am (UTC)

thaaaaaaaaaaanks, i miss those peps.
<3
Tara

Posted by: Melanie (xcurlupandlivex)
Posted at: September 11th, 2003 06:12 pm (UTC)

i got a new lj that's more private and im only telling people who's journals i like reading. http://www.livejournal.com/users/xlocust_reignx/
add me and I'll add you back.
<3

Posted by: ...in the freak kingdom (pirateryan)
Posted at: November 22nd, 2003 12:22 am (UTC)
EEEEEEEEE mo

Tara, you're so emo. I love it!

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